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Monday, November 09, 2009

Hello Seattle

Not sleeping after a nice break filled with lots of, well, sleeping, has a terrible effect on me. For starters, I woke up, threw up, and went back to bed. Then I spent the entire day sleeping. And now I'm here. Having done absolutely nothing besides reading. I'm completely unprepared for my Stats test tomorrow, I have three journal entries done for English, and all I want to do is freakin watch the rest of Gossip Girl (I'm only on episode 2 of this season, don't ruin anything for me!) :( I feel ridiculous, I don't know how to get my motivation back and frankly I feel like I'm digging this huge hole that I can't get out of.

Oh, and I spent a good chunk of my day deciding which NYU dorm I'd want to live in if I get in. Hah. Which I won't because I also spent the day on CC making myself feel even sicker about myself. fml.

Right now I really want two things. The first is to be accepted into college. To be settled and finally just ... secure in what is happening. And the second is for it to be sunnier out, later. I CANT take this "ooooh it gets dark at 4:30 thing" It is literally depressing me so much I don't know what to do. I think this is leading to my lack of motivation.

I feel really sick. I just want to go curl up in a ball and cry. I don't even know why this is happening or why I feel like this. I had an amazing break, and I spent a really big portion of it working. And I wasn't even dreading going back to school. Its just like all of the sudden all of this extra work popped up and now I just feel sick and nauseous and ... like I want to go back to sleep again. URGH.

Is high school over yet? :( only 8 more months or 139 more school days left. I'm gonna go die now. kaybye.
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Ocean Eyes
By Owl City
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Sunday, November 08, 2009

I've never felt more sexy or confident or even beautiful in my entire life. I can't wait to fall asleep in your sweatshirt tonight.

Happy birthday, baby. <3


Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Forget December

Its almost Christmas! All of these commercials actually make me feel like I'm skipping over Thanksgiving. Lalala.

I'm about to go to work. Afterwards I'm going to Ethan's to be productive. I need to get shit done this break, more than just one app. I'm thinking Rutgers will just have to get done, too. Reminder: Give Mrs. Randazza envelopes for my transcript. Wooo. After Rutgers, I'll work on my Common App Essay. Then all my supplements. then I'm done! I make it sound so simple. Hahaha. Uh.. I have club shit to do, too. I guess I'll get everything done. I'll try. I feel so unproductive. But it also feels nice to just veg out for a few days in front of the television. I NEVER get to do that. My brain is melting, in a good way.

So yeah. I guess some really exciting things are going on. Some really unhappy ones are, too. I just found out someone close to me's mom is really sick. And I need to act strong to help this person through it, but I almost broke down when they told me. And just. Idk. I feel so incredibly unhelpful and helpless. Its just not fair. But it also has helped me appreciate what I have a little better. Idk. :( To say the whole situation sucks is a complete understatement. I just hope everything is okay.

Idk. Such happy and sad, all in one. I guess I'm gonna go get ready for work now. Peace.
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A Santa Cause
By Various Artists
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Sunday, November 01, 2009

Three

My life rocks. Insanely.

Yesterday I pulled the trigger. Er... Okay. Hit the submit button. One of the same, is it not? November is going to be the longest month of my ENTIRE life. "Mid-December". Way to be specific, NYU. Cool 8). Well let's put it like this. There are about 4,500 people in a class. Almost 1,000 of them are decided early decision. That's gotta be the largest actual number of ANY college. So. I mean. I could be one of those almost 1,000. But enough speculating.

Yesterday after hitting the "submit" button, I cranked up "Jai Ho" and danced and got ready for halloweeeeen :) Ethan and TC ended up coming along with me and Josh to the party. We got to his place around 9 and just chilled until about 10:30. Then we walked with a bunch of Josh's friends to the house. Um, too much fun! I was dancing the entire night and, even though I really didn't have that much to drink (that I remember?) I got more drunk then I probably ever have been in my entire life O_O. Like, somehow I saw Jen Lee, Tom Minucci, and Alex Pikarsky, and I barely remember it. But it was awesome. OH AND WE SAW JAW RAY. LOL I love college. After that we walked back to Josh's place and had even more fun. Omfg I woke up and looked at my camera and there were all these pictures I don't remember taking hahahaha. Oh god. Good stuff. Good times. I love halloween. Best halloween hands down.

Today's been a waste sort of. Luckily I didn't wake up hung over. Weird. Came home and met my dad. We went to the mall and talked about college some more. -__- He is using me as an excuse to move back to Queens to "save money", if I get into NYU. bleh. But if I don't get in I'm making him stay at the apartment. Because I love that place.

After the mall I came home and made a date list of all the rest of my college stuff and what I need to do. I love colleges with no supplement or with no essay included in the supplement. I might just fill all of those out tonight so I can just decide which essays I want to start first. Too fucking many >:( bleh.

Uh... Oh and I cut my bangs. They're cute. Hooray. I'll probably dye my hair, too. It's time for a change. 8)

Someone buy me the silver brocade dress from BCBG (that for some reason is not online :( :( boo) that I fell in love with today. It's only 200 dollars! Or you can pay for my tire that cost me $180 -___- then I'd feel less guilty about spending $200 on this gorgeous dress. Perhaps I can convince my parents to get it for me for Christmas :) that'd be nice.

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Britney Spears: The Singles Collection
By Britney Spears
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Bowl of Oranges

When I get a free moment I will change my song for Kristina. I need to ponder what you will all hear upon entering my blog. So much power!

Today I got vaccinated. Awesome?

It was nice coming in to work late. And Ankita's incredible and switched with me for Saturday so now I can actually CRASH on Friday 8) YAY! I'm thinking this calls for an Arrested Development marathon

Other than that life is fine. I'm just stressed and stretched thin. Tomorrow's going to be so much fun (I LOVE Halloween @ the High!) I want to take a bajillion pictures. I need to put together a nerd costume tonight :( I wish I had cute glasses. Maybe I'll go to the mall after school tomorrow. How exciting!

Weezer and Jack's Mannequin are touring together. OMFG that's a concert made in Jacki and Josh heaven! YEAH!

Anyway. I'm just putting off doing my actual homework. You know, studying for Stats, redoing Gov so I don't fail at life. Editing my college essay as USUAL. I can do that after mommy gets home with sushi. That was my reward for getting the H1N1 virus when I could've been at home instead. 8)

Okay. So. Life does not suck so much. Maybe I can do this? Maybe I might actually survive this week?

Oh also can you wish me luck on the SATs?? I'm wishing it right back out at you :D
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Lifted or The Story Is in the Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground
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